Limerence: If We Were A Movie

It was Sinatra Junior High School reunion. And he was there, staring at black-jacket-and-red-converse-shoes girl. She smiled to her friends, didn't know that he was staring—for about thirteen minutes— at her.

Lalu, gadis itu keluar dari gedung itu. And then, she stopped.

"I know you're there," katanya. Lalu dia berbalik dan menghampiri laki-laki itu.

"It's been a long time," jawab laki-laki.

"Yea, I know," kata gadis itu. "Kamu tahu aku mau kemana 'kan?"

Lalu, mereka berjalan lagi dalam diam. She wanted to talk, but she just can't.

Mereka berjalan menuju atap, tempat mereka pertama kali bertemu.

Dan terakhir bertemu, tanpa selamat tinggal.

"How's life?" tanya Gadis itu.

"I think I'm good. You?"

"Setidaknya aku masih bernafas," jawabnya. He smiled a little.

"I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how," batin laki-laki itu.

"Kamu selalu begitu," ucap laki-laki itu.

"How's Mala?" Gadis itu langsung menanyakan yang sebenarnya dihindari dua orang di atap sekolah lama mereka itu.

"Yah, kita sudah putus dari lama," jawabnya.

"Haha, turut berduka cita ya, maaf tidak mengirim mawar hitam," ucap Gadis itu setengah tersenyum, dan menerawang jauh.

Laki-laki tersenyum getir. Gadis itu tidak peduli.

Akhirnya mereka duduk, memperhatikan sekolah lama mereka. Dan juga, melihat film lama mereka berputar.

When everything's started

And ended.

"Kamu dulu kenapa menjauh?" tanya laki-laki itu setelah hening lama.

"Hah?"

"Kamu tahu aku males mengulang,"

Lalu hening lagi, lama. Gadis itu menghela napas panjang.

"I gave up. I just didn't care anymore. If I didn't have you I didn't have any reason. Everytime you told me about your girlfriend you seemed so happy. And I knew I was nothing, except your best friend." jelas gadis itu.

Mereka terkesiap. Mengapa butuh 4 tahun lamanya untuk kebenarannya?

"I've been wondering.." kata gadis itu. "Did you remember when we do that Forrest Gump impressions? When we prayed to God.."

"Haha, I remember." jawabnya lalu tertawa kecil.

"Dear God, make me a bird, so I could fly far-far away from here." they do that impressions together. Hampir bersamaan.

"I used to know you so well," kata laki-laki itu. "Terkadang, aku bingung aku akan bertemu kamu yang mana,"

"Maksudnya?"

"Dulu, aku bingung akan bertemu kamu yang mana, kamu yang cerah dan ramah atau kamu yang dingin dan berjarak." jawabnya.

"I was broken hearted," ucap gadis itu.. "All the things I did were childish and immature. I thought by pretending you weren't there will make me easier." lanjutnya.

"Aku tahu aku salah. Aku juga bingung sama perasaanku sendiri," ucap gadis itu lagi.

Laki-laki itu menghela nafas panjang.

"Nope, kamu nggak salah, aku yang salah. I made a mistake by not breaking up with Mala when I put so much hope for you." jelas laki-laki itu. "But, I do like you, not just for best friend."

"You want to know what other expectation I got wrong?" asked the girl.  "That you would date me. That you were some kind of golden boy who was going to drag me from the hole I buried myself in and that we would be this—this perfect couple who fought like hell but loved each other more than anybody in the whole world. I thought you would save me."

"Dulu, aku selalu berpikir," lanjut gadis itu. "If we were a movie, you'll be the right guy, I'll be your best friend that you're falling love with,"

"For this moment, I want. God to make us birds." He said. "So we could fly far away from here."

"Yeah, of course I want that too."

"I want to save you from the hole you buried yourself in," kata laki-laki itu juga.

Gadis itu diam saja.

Laki-laki itu ikut diam.

Tempat itu hening.

Dan mereka membiarkan keheningan itu mengunci perasaan mereka masing-masing.

January 10th, 8.45 am

Nexia Nevarachell